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Well, my two-week vacation was over. When I returned to California from Billings, Montana, Angie Kendall asked me if the “Tower” had fallen to pieces.
Oh, yes. Yes, the “Tower” did come down. Maybe it's going to collapse. It's going to fall apart.
That's what I said.
What in the world is she talking about? She is talking about the “Tower”, the 16th Major Arcana of the Tarot card. I did not believe in divination at that time, but Angie was gradually resorting to metaphysics because our "Nu-Era Pics" were growing too fast and she was not sure if she could make the right decisions in the future.
At that time, after listening to my suggestions in business, she always sought opinions from Tarot cards, Lenormand Cards, and various Oracle Cards, and when she still could not allay her fears, she sought opinions from her coaches and mentors. They usually possessed spiritual knowledge. The picture of the “Tower”, number 16 in the Major Arcana, is like the Tower of Babel collapsing. This indicates an imminent event that will have a great impact on our lives. The picture is shocking, but not necessarily with serious consequences. In my case, the impetus to change my ego's pompous attitude came through the simple goodwill of the people of Billings.
Before going to Billings, Montana, Angie Kendall prophesied.
Yukkin!!! a great change is coming to your life! The “Tower” is out! A “Tower”!
What are you talking about?
That was my reaction….
Now I know that Oracle Cards such as Tarot are significant as a way to ask the opinion of my Higher-Self or Soul, but I had no idea that my true Will was hidden behind, deep within, or above my manifest consciousness.
Or, I had no doubt at the time that my future glory would be earned by my own efforts and that almost everything would be up to me.
I had no idea that some things in life are predetermined. I did not believe in the existence of "prārabdha karma".
It is true that life is up to me, but the ego-consciousness has no power, so there is no use in resisting the unfolding of destiny. But at that time I believed that I could achieve everything with my efforts on the level of ego-consciousness.
But sure enough, the "Tower" collapsed, and I couldn't help but see Angie Kendall as a sage. I told her about my two weeks in Billings, Montana. I declared that from now on I would be more open to rich emotional experiences. I told her that I would be going to Monument Valley in the near future. Monument Valley is an area stretching from southern Utah to northern Arizona and is inhabited by the Navajo Nation. Or rather, it is a place whose scenery I have seen many times in the movies I watched for my young English studies. In other words, I saw it a lot in John Ford's westerns. Stagecoach, My Darling Clementine, Fort Apache, She Wore a Yellow Ribbon, Rio Grande, The Searchers, etc. And Monument Valley can also be seen in Robert Zemeckis' "Forrest Gump". This is where Forrest Gump stops running after running for about 3 years and 2 months.
I was somewhat interested in learning about the enormity of the United States, and I wanted to experience a different and incredible spectacle of "Nature".
When Angie Kendall heard this, she asked me if I would like to attend a certain workshop she was attending.
Yes, you are right. It is a workshop on spiritual knowledge. However, it was not run by a famous person, but by an old friend of Angie's from her "Computer Online Services" hobby days, Melissa "Missy" Blanchard, who lives in Albuquerque, was doing it at home. I was curious, my heart was at full throttle, and I agreed. And there I first heard the term "Law of Attraction".
Melissa “Missy” Blanchard's mother is a so-called “medium”. Since she was a little girl, her mother always used to say, “Light is information". Her mother's saying had a lot to do with Missy's interest in “Computer Online Services”.
For 18 years, from 1977 to 1995, Mary Margaret Moore, a resident of Santa Fe, New Mexico's capital city, channeled the higher-dimensional being Bartholomew. "Bartholomew” is a name given for convenience. This being is a consciousness and does not actually have a name. This is the same as the more famous entity “BASHAR” on the planet Essassani. Oh, did you not know that? Yes. "BASHAR” is an alien!
Bartholomew sent much information from the unseen world through Mary Margaret Moore to help humanity awaken. "Channeling” can be described as a telepathic communication made possible by matching the frequencies of consciousness. All consciousness is vibrational energy, and vibrational energy has a frequency. And since the same frequencies can be connected to each other, communication is possible. It's the same principle as radio.
Mary Margaret Moore often came to Albuquerque, the largest city in New Mexico, to do channeling sessions with Bartholomew in public places. On those occasions, Melissa “Missy” Blanchard's mother attended with young Missy. So, she was well acquainted with spiritual knowledge early on.
However, Melissa “Missy” Blanchard did not inherit her mother's profession of “mediumship”.
Missy loves to write and has written and self-published poetry and sensual queer fiction. I've actually bought a few of her books, but I'm a little embarrassed to read them, LOL. She consistently writes about the integration and harmonization of masculine and feminine energies, which is a spiritually important theme, but the descriptions are a little, I don't know, too extreme for me anymore, LOL.
Missy has left her parents' home and is happily living with her beautiful Asian girlfriend. And she had early success investing in stocks. She has made a hard vow in her heart to live her life doing only what she loves. Bartholomew and her other spiritual knowledge have influenced her throughout her life, making her days rich and joyful. Eventually, Melissa “Missy” Blanchard began holding small workshops and meditations in her home to help her friends live abundantly.
At a workshop that Angie Kendall took me to, Melissa “Missy” Blanchard was asked the following question by a sales professional who, like me, was attending that session for the first time.
- My business performance has not been good lately. My competitors are overtaking me. I have always been first in sales for the month, but last month I was third. What is happening to me?
Missy's response to this question was as follows:
Do you love your job? Or do you love the competition? The "Law of Attraction" works very strictly and perfectly to support you. If you don't like the job itself, then you should probably look for another job. It does not mean that it is not good to be preoccupied with competition with rivals. But if you live in daily fear of losing to your rivals, then I don't think you can say that you like competition. If all you think about is losing to your rivals, the Universe will show you an exact reflection of the frequency of your thoughts. You will lose more and more.
If I were in that situation, I would get the hell out of the competition. And I would do what I love. In fact, I write poetry and a rather sensual queer fiction. I buy shares in good companies that I like. I don't mind the daily rise and fall of stock prices because I want to enjoy the sensual time I spend with my lover to the fullest. I reinvest dividends to earn compound interest. I enjoy watching good companies grow, and I know I am being helpful.
My advice is that you should get out of the competition and get into the work you want to do to the best of your ability.
Do you love the product you are selling? Do you love your customers? Do you lose money if your colleagues outperform you? Respect your happiness. And that means respect the happiness of others at the same time. In short, no more competition.
I was shocked because I felt as if all my own secrets had been revealed to me. And as I listened intently to her words, I gradually began to cry.
When in the world had I become addicted to competition?
I couldn't tolerate the way Japanese music critics were giving Cyndi Lauper credit and making fun of Madonna. I used to listen to Cyndi Lauper as well. I love songs like “Girls Just Want to Have Fun,” “Time after Time,” “She Bop,” and “True Colors".
There is no need to compare the two. But I did see such comparisons from time to time in music magazines. Eventually, Madonna underwent a transformation. As her intelligence became more apparent, no one said or did anything to make fun of her. So, I knew that I had to be smart in order not to be underestimated by others. And so I learned many times more than I had before. I have already told you about this! I also told you that after September of my first year of middle school, I suffered from a form of "IJIME/bullying". After the track and field club members destroyed my SONY "Walkman" and the cassette tape containing Madonna's songs in it, I left the track and field club and began to study hard, vowing to become a very successful one.
I actually got good grades. My name “Yukiko Shimada” was usually written quite high on the nationwide mock exam. After returning from Billings, Montana, I was accepted to the University of Tokyo. It is the highest academic institution in Japan. But I did not enroll in the University of Tokyo. I wanted to study business where I could be closest to the front lines of business because I wanted to do interesting business. So, I went to Leland Stanford Junior University.
I love business. I have seen the joy on many people's faces, especially Angie Kendall's, and it has always given me the passion to move on to my next project.
However, at some point, I began to feel happy or sad about the daily numbers. And although I did not go so far as to say, "Go bankrupt," I did not hesitate to act when a great opportunity presented itself that would make me overly hostile to rival firms and give me an overwhelming advantage over them. And several of our rivals did indeed suffer serious blows, and some even fell. That is how I earned the Infamous name of "Tsuji-Giri OYUKI". I will tell you about the events that started it all another time. The insight that the death of my grandfather Tatsuo Tsukida, who served as a mentor to me, was the catalyst for my turn down a confusing path, came a short time after I returned home from the Melissa "Missy" Blanchard workshop. He appeared in my dream.
Yukiko, it's wonderful to be different from everyone else.
Be yourself.
He said to me the same words he always said to me. After his death, before I knew it, I had adopted the pattern of behavior that everyone adopts in a world that believes that only death awaits us if we do not survive and win this competition, where the daily numbers make us happy or sad. It would be an abandonment of what made me different from everyone else, what made me who I was. But my grandfather was smiling gently, and I woke up from my dream and thought he was telling me that it was still possible to change direction.
It seemed obvious that Melissa “Missy” Blanchard was right. As long as our competitors make money and our “Nu-Era Pics” do as well, that's all that matters. We cannot control 100% of the market. First of all, we saw "Microsoft Windows 95" as an opportunity to start our own business, so we made our money by leaning on Microsoft's technology, and we will never be number one in the IT industry. We have become wealthy, and we receive compliments from many of our valued customers on a daily basis.
There is no need to be overly happy or sad about our daily performance numbers, in fact, I might be richer and happier for it....
I thought I had found the way forward. From now on, as long as I am in a state of excited awareness and doing what I enjoy, I can live a life that is in alignment with my soul's purpose. It is fun! I knew I would be able to revisit Montana and visit my family in Japan. It should also be possible to visit my grandfather's grave. I obviously needed a break.
So, I became obsessed with the "Law of Attraction" and started reading classic "New Thought Movement" books like James Allen's "As a Man Thinketh", Joseph Murphy's "The Miracles of Your Mind", Napoleon Hill's "Think and Grow Rich", Wallace D. Wattles's "The Science of Getting Rich", Henry Harrison Brown's "Dollars Want Me", Florence Scovel Shinn's "The Game of Life and How to Play It", and books by some of the most popular spiritual teachers like Deepak Chopra, I began attending workshops by Abraham-Hicks, Joseph Vitale, and others. It would be a little later, in 2006, that Rhonda Byrne would make "The Secret" a big hit with her two-media mix strategy of book and film.
And every day, I was excited to work and play comfortably and pleasantly. The planet is beautiful and interesting. Hawaii was interesting too. I enjoyed swimming with the dolphins and visited many times.
My love of animals began when I spent time with Gordon, the black cat of the GREEN family of Billings, Montana. After returning to San Francisco from Montana, I even thought about getting a cat. But with my situation at that time, when I was sometimes away from home for a week or so on business trips, I decided it was best not to do that. Of course, I could hire a pet-sitter during that time, but after all, I would have to have the pet-sitter stay at my home all the time because I would sometimes come home from work in the middle of the night. I felt that would not be the point of having a cat. So, I enjoyed interacting with animals on my vacation trips. Naturally, swimming with dolphins became my greatest pleasure.
I also liked the volcanoes on the Big Island of Hawai‘i. When I went near the volcano, I felt like I was looking at myself. I felt that although I was now resting in touch with "Nature", it was a preparation for something, and that one day I would make a huge explosion like a volcano and begin the creation of something new.
Continued story :The Re-Invention - My days of being obsessed with the "Law of Attraction" -
©Mitsuhiro Toda@Screenwriter Group Aquariusera
